[Update] My pussy tastes better. | 2016

So I didn't think what I wrote here last time would get any attention. I thought my writing was pretty shitty. Thanks for the comments. I know it's a really really fucked up situation. I do love Alan, just not in the way he loves me. I care for him and I hate the way Melissa treats him. He deserves better then that and honestly, I am willing to treat him better.

He came back to me the day after I wrote that. We had a long talk and decided that night, we weren't going to have sex. I feel 100% closer to him after this talk. It's hard for him to forget her because she is his first love. I can completely understand what he's talking about as I had my first love before and I know the pain involved with it. Alan asked me if our relationship is more then sexual. I wanted to be completely honest with him, and I told him that it is very sexual but I REALLY want it to be emotional too because I do care for him and it's hard for me to show affection in other ways then sex.

He says he wants to move away. His job will transfer anywhere in the world. I'm kind of nervous. I told him I don't want to be anymore then 5 hours away from where we live now, just in case we don't work out because I don't want to have to spend an arm and a leg to move back home if I had to. My family lives here and I go to school here. My credits are transferable to where we are looking to go. He says he wants to take care of me and I wouldn't have to work, but I told him I don't feel comfortable with him being the only bread winner and I would at least work part time.

Over the weekend, we traveled about 4 hours away from here and looked at some places together. It was really fun and we bonded a lot. Of course...there was more oral sex. I know someone commented on the last post about anyone being able to make me orgasm, if there is communication...but with Alan, he just makes me cum right away. He knows how I love to be touched, he knows the right way to kiss me and hold me. I would say I'm in love, but I felt this way before so I won't say I'm in love with him, but I do love him.

Melissa said she's done with his shit, but she's been texting him every now and then asking if it's really over and he says it is. She called last night and cried over voicemail. I just felt really guilty. Alan told me not to and if I wouldn't have ever happened, he would still be with her. I realize that they both cheated each other and Alan could cheat on me. It wouldn't be the end of the world, but since I'm willing to dedicate myself to him, I doubt he will go looking. The idea of an open relationship does seem appealing to me as I have never been with a women before.

Anyways, I do trust him. I trust him so much anything he wants to do, I'll do for him. Last night was my first time trying anal. I was especialy nervous. I've never let anyone even put a finger in me before. But we tried it and I think I have a new favorite thing in bed. He started off slow, kissing my neck and back and shoulders and it made me more relaxed. He never pounded me, but he definitely picked up speed and I was surprised it felt really good.

We took a shower after and were laughing so much in the shower. When he smiles it just makes me smile. We got out and dried off, and then he went to work on my pussy for a good 30 minutes, while I came five times and told him I couldn't take it anymore. The bed and his face are drenched with my cum. He kisses my clit and my pussy and blows on it softly, making me giggle. He kisses my thighs, knees and calves. He starts to massage my legs and tell me I have the best legs ever.

He makes me turn over on to my stomach and then he lays beside me and strokes my back, ass, and top of my thighs. He does this for an hour and I'm in a daze. I am still wet, so I straddle him and put his hard dick inside me. I ride him slowly, looking into his eyes. I can't stand being so far away from him, so I lean down and kiss him passionately, while riding his cock. He's so deep inside me and hitting the right spot, that I let a moan escape every time his dick hits that spot. After 5 minutes, I cum on his cock and then he cums.

We lay there holding each other and I roll off top of him. He looks at me and says "wow." He makes me giggle because he looks so spaced out. He then leans over and kisses me tenderly. He asks if he can eat me out again. I say, "Only if you go slow." He kisses my neck, sucks on my breasts, kisses down my stomach, and grazes his lips against my clit. I shiver. Then he has his whole mouth on my pussy and I have to tell him to slow down a few times. He tells me he wants to please me until I pass out with a smile on my face.