Raping my girlfriend. | 2016

A little back story. I got with my girlfriend Amy almost exactly a year ago but as luck would have it, I'd already made travel plans with a one way ticket to LA from Australia in June. We had such an awesome connection though and enjoyed our time together that I told her I was committed to making it work some how between us. When we first got together I was seeing another chick (from a poly relationship) but I was open with Amy from the beginning and she was cool with the situation.

As it came closer to me leaving we spoke about how we were going to preserve the relationship and we decided all we needed was to maintain an emotional connection and that the relationship could be totally open. I bought her a ticket to come visit me in August and I made plans to come back to Australia to visit her in January for a month or so before getting back to my travels. I didn't really act on the open relationship until the end of October when I had a couple of one night stands, which I told her about and she in turn started experimenting with a friend for benefits and then in turn with a couple who were into the swinging lifestyle. We kind of hit a bumpy patch when I began hooking up with another Aussie girl, which progressed into a fairly serious relationship. Amy maintained that she was cool with it and kept up her escapades with the swingers (eventually getting dp'd by the guy and a friend).

I was under the impression that everything was going fine with us as we had great communication and were super honest with one another. Upon my arrival to Australia however, I was greeted by the fact that things actually weren't. It's been about 3 weeks now and she's still undecided as to whether she feels the same about me and that emotional uncertainty has prevented her from feeling comfortable about having sex with me. Even little initiations, such as rubbing her up a little, when I felt the mood was right got rebuffed after a short period of time with her shutting me out and rolling over in bed.

We've been communicating fairly well though throughout this and have been trying to make the most of each other's company. One day we were talking about a recent pedophilia bust and the ethics around fantasies. She mentioned offhandedly that she has had rape fantasies but the conversation continued without me making anything of it. Somehow I got a little hooked on the idea of exploring this with her but still no situation arose where it would have been appropriate until yesterday.

We were talking about our relationship and how I will be ok with whatever she decides and I just want what's best for her. I decided to go up and visit my parents in a couple of days and give her a bit of space to think about what she wants and hopefully realise she misses me. Somehow after the chat, the rape fantasy was mentioned again and I probed a little asking her what it was and what elements of it appealed to her. She told me it was nothing specific, just the feeling of being wanted and dominated. I said to her "choose a safe word" to which she laughed and said "No, I don't need a safe word" but I pressed the point saying "How am I supposed to know if the no you are saying is part of the act or if you actually want me to stop?". I think she got a little nervous, went quiet for a moment and then simply said "chips".

As soon as she said that I attacked. I jumped on top of her on the bed, pinning her down and started talking dirty to her. "Now I am going to have you. I'm gonna get that pussy I flew across to the world for and you're gonna take my fat cock in every one of your holes." I kept up with this, holding her hands above her head and attacking her neck and ears with passionate kisses, while whispering more dirty shit to her.

I held both her hands above her head with one hand, kneeling over her tummy, while I reached my other down and began furiously rubbing her pussy over her g-string. I wasn't gentle at all and when she'd stop struggling with her hands I'd let go of them and choke her a little or pull her hair. She was squirming violently under my weight and I could her moaning into the pillow. "Oh, see what a little slut you are, you're supposed to be getting raped and now you're moaning like a whore. I bet when I shove my fingers in your cunt you're going to be dripping wet for me." Lo and behold, as I forced my hand down the front of her panties, she most certainly was and I straight away plunged 2 fingers deep inside her. I forced them deep inside her to find her spot and straight away she was bucking her hips into my hand. I moved myself up on her body and started slapping her face with my rock hard cock telling her to "be good and suck me". As I was slapping around her mouth, her tongue came out and chased my cock around, trying desperately to get a taste of it. I grabbed her by the hair and obliged, shoving my cock deep into her mouth while I told her to "suck it you filthy slut".

After a bit of that, I tried pulling her panties off to which she resisted but I told her either "I'm gonna slide them off or rip them off". She obliged and brought her thighs together so I could easily pull them off. I reached down and slapped her bald pussy a few times before plunging my fingers deep inside her again. With my cock in her mouth and my fingers deep in her pussy I started dirty talking again, telling her I was going to "fuck her mouth, then her pussy, then her ass. Or maybe I should fuck your wet cunt first, then your ass, then feed you my filthy cock."

Once I could feel her super wet against my hand I moved down to straddle her hips and started slapping my cock against her now super swollen clit. I ran it up and down the length of her slit for a couple of seconds before I said "now if you weren't such a filthy slut that just let any cock inside your holes, I'd fuck you right now to pump you full of cum.....But since you are I'd better wear a condom before I get inside that dirty cunt."

I jumped off the bed to grab one from the bedside table, slid it on the quickest I ever have giving myself a few quick strokes to make sure I was hard. By this time she'd rolled over on the bed and had her face buried in the pillow. I came round from behind her, grabbed the back of her hair and just shoved my cock deep inside her straight away. She gasped and moaned as I filled her up without warning but I didn't let up and went straight to fucking her hard and deep. With one hand yanking her hair from behind, I pushed the thumb from my other into her tight ass. I started talking dirty again about how I would "fuck all her holes" but after less than a minute I could feel my orgasm building. I wanted it to last for longer, I wanted to savour the fact that I was inside her beautiful pussy, but I was so turned on and had been wanting it for so long I just thought "fuck it", went even harder and came a few seconds afterwards. The whole time she'd been moaning into the pillow and I could almost hear disappoint in her moans as she felt my pace slow down and I collapsed on top of her.

I kissed her up her back, up her sweaty neck and whispered "I love you" into her ear. She rolled her head sidewards from the pillow and just said "that was awesome". I lay on top of her for a moment afterwards before pulling out and taking a place next to her on the bed. I asked her she was ok and she smiled and said yes. She asked me if I'd "done that before?" to which I replied "No, I hadn't but I'd been thinking about it since you mentioned it the other day." We lay there for a moment before I got a call that I had to go and pick up a package. I left her as she was jumping into the shower for work. It felt a little weird but once she returned from work, I asked her if she was ok about this afternoon and she just smiled and said yeah, of course.

I don't really know where our relationship is at now, but I guess if it ends I'm glad I at least got to experience that with her.