My new experience as a submissive begins..... | 2016

I’m a long time reader and fan of this subreddit, but this is my first time posting. This story started a number of weeks ago and is 100% true. I am posting it for you to enjoy and I will be posing new updates periodically.

BACKSTORY: I’ve been interested in threesomes, being spanked, tied up, and other aspects of the BDSM lifestyle for a very long time. The idea of being a submissive has lingered in my mind for many years and turned me on, but I had no idea how to start to explore it and like most people was afraid to ever bring it up with people. I’m pretty shy around men, so it’s been a while since I’ve had sex. Almost a month ago I came across some postings by this one Dom that really turned me on. They related stories about his experiences and so many of them were things that I had dreamt of trying and since he seemed respectful and knowledgeable, I decided to message him to ask how to go about exploring BDSM.

He responded with a wealth of helpful information and suggestions, things to consider, what I needed to know before starting and how to meet others by going to some munches/gatherings or just get comfortable with it myself so I could maybe discuss it with a partner in the future (should I find one). I didn’t go to any as I was still too nervous (and busy at work) to take that first step. I kept worrying about what you’re supposed to wear and do, and who I might meet. In other words, I’m a total wuss.

To keep this backstory short, one message led to another and he offered to give me an introduction to serving, all of which would take place online. I happily agreed. That was a while ago. Now here comes the fun part...

We spent a little time discussing some basic ground rules and my desires and out of the blue he suggests that we start with a simple set of things that would allow me to begin to learn how to take my submissive desires and learn how to serve. It was so exciting that I eagerly began. I received a message with explicit instructions to follow and this is what happened over that first week.

MONDAY: The first night, as he instructed, I stripped and crawled onto my bed on all fours. As I was given these instructions the day before, I had been looking forward to this all day. I knew that I was not allowed to orgasm today and the thought that I was submitting myself to him really got me wet. I slowly ran my fingers over my ass and felt a small chill go up my spine. I was on all fours, fully exposed to anyone that would be behind me and that was so hot. I ran my fingers over my pussy as instructed and them pumped my finger in and out of my tight pussy, and could hear how wet I was. Then I dragged my finger across my clit to circle it, and slowly teased my finger up and down. It felt so fucking good. I spanked each cheek several times, which made me moan and squirm. I repeated this cycle for a half hour. By the end, my clit was throbbing and I was soaking wet. I made it 30 minutes, on all fours, getting so close to orgasm, but never having one.

He told me to let him know when I was desperate to cum. I wasn’t there yet but I was insanely wet… That night I ordered a new vibrator to play with :-)

TUESDAY: He sent another message telling me to make the session 45 minutes, and to make sure to get to the edge of the orgasm each time before I stopped, calm down and start again. I also learned what he was making me do was called “edging.” I’d never heard of it before. If you haven’t done it, I highly recommend it. It’s freaking incredible. Being taken to the absolute edge and then being denied an orgasm intensifies all of your senses, and the continued edging builds up over time so the more times you get to the edge, the more sensitive you become the next time. It is a viscous and thoroughly amazing process.

I repeated the routine from the night before but made sure I stopped RIGHT before coming each time. It felt really intense and amazing. Towards the end of the 45 minutes, whenever I'd start again, it was like I jumped right back to where I was before I stopped. When I finished, my whole body was focused on my clit and nipples, and I was starting to understand what he meant by desperate to cum…

WEDNESDAY: When I woke up, my pussy was throbbing and my whole body felt like it was tingling. I moaned, rolled over and arched my ass in the air wishing for someone to fuck me and spank me hard from behind.

I received a new message telling me to wear a garter belt and stockings while edging that night because they would frame my pussy/ass for him, and I felt sexy as fuck with them on. I lost count of how many times I almost came in 45 minutes…it all became a blur. I got a hair away from coming several times, especially towards the end. It was hot needing and wanting permission to cum.

THURSDAY: So I was sent a message asking how things were going and I was on fire. I have never been so turned on, so focused on my needs, so alive. But no orgasm for me. As soon as I walked in the house, I stripped, and put on my garter belt and stockings. I crawled into bed, got on all fours, spread my legs, arched my ass into the air, placed my elbows on the bed, and put my head down in between them. I thought about presenting myself for spanking like he instructed. I pictured someone standing behind me looking at my pussy and ass while deciding what to do with me. Contemplating what would happen. The cool air felt torturous on my hot pussy. I continued to follow the directions and I spanked each ass cheek a few times and each time a jolt shot through me. I had never experienced anything like this and it was sooooooo fucking hot. As instructed I reached down to drag my finger slowly through my pussy. I finger fucked myself for a while, and was rubbing my nipples back and forth on the sheets. I almost came from just penetration, which had never happened to me before. I was/am really excited about that. I repeated the routine for 45 minutes. Towards the end, my legs were shaking and my face felt really hot whenever I got close to coming. I was dripping wet, so much so that I thought it might actually slide down my thighs. Needless to say, I was pretty desperate to cum.

FRIDAY: While I was at work and sitting at my desk, I new I needed to climax, and I was determined to do what it took to make that happen. I messaged back and forth and was finally sent a set of instructions late in the day that were mind blowing. I almost came when I read them, and I was at work!!! I had some things to do and I have never had this much anticipation in my life. It was like Christmas day, my birthday and hitting the lottery all in one. I was so wet....... During the conversation, he told me that I was to think about all the things I was being MADE to do. My pussy was pulsing as I read his messages and it was torture to have to wait until I could go home.

After what seemed like a week, I finally made it home that night, I reread the instructions and just couldn't wait any longer. That night I had to wear panties with my garter belt so I put on a matching thong. I “presented” myself as I did the other nights, on all fours, head down legs spread wide. I spanked myself on my left cheek first and counted 1. I repeated it, a little harder this time, and said 2. I continued this until I got to 5 and smacked my ass as hard as I could. I repeated this on my right cheek.

When I reached back to feel how wet my panties were, I moaned at the contact. I ran my fingers slowly up and down until they were soaked through, just like he instructed.

I took my panties off and got back on all fours. I ran my hand down my body, starting by squeezing my breasts and pinching my nipples. I ran my fingers lightly down my stomach and traced the edges of the garter belt, causing goose bumps to break out over my skin. I ran my finger over my pussy lips for a while, desperately wishing I could touch my clit for some relief. I had to stop at one point because I thought I could cum while thinking about how he made me edge all week. After a few deep breaths, I ran my hand over my ass, which I spanked again several times on each cheek. Because I was so fucking turned on, I did something I’d never done or had done to me before…I ran my middle finger down the crack of my ass. I was surprised at how good that felt and got excited about the first time someone would use my ass. I reached down and ran my fingers over my pussy lips again. By now, I was so desperate to touch my clit that I would’ve done anything…

In my head I was begging to cum while still running my fingers over my pussy lips. Then I slid two fingers into my dripping wet pussy. It was a tight fit since I haven’t had sex in a while and I usually only use one finger, but I was so wet that it didn’t matter. I moaned at the feel of my fingers and the sound of my fingers moving in and out. It felt soooooooo good to finally have my pussy full. I fucked myself slowly and I was circling my hips, rubbing my nipples on the sheets, and starting to get really hot. It took me a bit, but my legs started trembling again and I got to the edge so I pulled my fingers out. I was breathing hard, and my clit was pounding.

I pictured him making me beg to cum by pulling my hair back roughly to say it out loud while spanking me hard. Then I began finger fucking myself to the edge again. I was able to get there somewhat quicker the second time. But I was so wet, like I have never been When I stopped, my face felt flushed, and my whole body was tingling.

I repeated, “My pussy belongs to you,” and then I finger fucked myself as fast and hard as I could like instructed and I kept fingering myself as fast as I could, still not touching my clit, until I came begged to cum, counted down from five to one and when I hit I one I came. I HARD. Harder than I ever have. I remember my legs were shaking involuntarily while pumping my fingers in and out to ride it out. It was by far the most intense orgasm that I’ve ever had, and it felt so incredible to finally cum after days of edging. and I never touched my clit.

As he instructed, I flipped on my back and spread my legs wide, excited that I was FINALLY allowed to touch my clit. This time I slid the fingers on my left hand into my pussy so I could use my right on my clit when the time came. I slid my fingers inside, slowly pumping in and out at first. I rubbed my breasts with my free hand, increasing the speed of my hand. I finally touched my clit, and rubbed it as hard and fast as I could. It felt FUCKING AMAZING after not touching it all day… and I came again. My legs had moved so they were straight on the bed and closed tight around my hands (I don’t remember consciously doing it). Again, my legs shook as I came, which is also a new phenomenon to me. That’s never happened to me from sex or masturbation. I continued to rub my clit as I came down. Once I was finished, I bent my legs and spread them wide again. 0

At this point the instructions said, you can cum as many times as you want, but once you stop, you are done. Period. So I dragged the fingers in my pussy up and around my clit to spread my juices. I kept rubbing my clit and fingering myself until I came twice more. My body felt relaxed and incredible by the time I was done.

After I came the final time, I was suddenly so tired that I could barely keep my eyes open. But I remembered what he said about licking my fingers clean. I lazily lifted my hand and put my middle finger in my mouth first. It felt naughty to be tasting myself…and I liked it. I finished licking the other three fingers that I used, and the next thing I knew I was asleep. Who knew you could pass out cold from too many orgasms? :-)

SATURDAY:
I woke up on Saturday in awe of myself. I felt awesome. I thought about what had happened, and knew this experience was only the first. In just a short week as a submissive, I’m already feeling more sensual, confident, and sexy. I like that he’s in charge of how and when I cum. And I’m excited to FINALLY be taking a step towards exploring my (secret) sexual desires and fantasies. I’m having a blast so far.

Hope you enjoyed my first post ;-) I’m off to bed to edge myself again…sweet dreams.