[M]y first gay experience and gloryhole. | 2016

A little about me: I was raised in a very conservative religious environment. I've always dated women and identified as straight. However, when I was going through puberty and discovered porn for the first time, I found myself curious about gay sex. After watching a few videos and finding it arousing, I began experimenting with anal/prostate stimulation. I found that it produced my greatest orgasms and I really enjoyed the feeling of being fucked. Still, I never found myself romantically interested in male partners.

I'm now 29 and have been going through various life changes that left me questioning my beliefs and who I am. As a result I decided I wanted to experiment with another man. I honestly had no idea how to even go about it. I don't have any gay friends that I'd feel comfortable experimenting with and dating apps like grinder just felt awkward. Craigslist seemed too shady so I turned to Reddit. I had some initial interest but at the time I just wasn't ready and I chickened out. A week ago I decided it was time.

I did some searching on google and found a "private men's health club" in my area. The reviews were all very positive and the website made me feel like there was a culture of safety and anonymity. It took me a few weeks of mulling over the idea but once I made up my mind I knew there was no going back. This was going to happen. I pulled up to the club and walked it. There was a waiting area and adult toy shop. I knew what I wanted and I approached the counter. "Id like to use the gloryhole."

The man took my payment and provided me with a towel for the shower, a private locker for my cloths, and a key to a booth. As he buzzed me in I became nervous for the first time. The building was a dimly lit labyrinth. The clerk had muttered directions to me but I was in such a haze I couldn't remember a thing he said. As I walked down the halls I passed a few other men in nothing but towels, each meeting my gaze invitingly. I passed a gym, the showers, and a few doors with beds. As I poked around I noticed that some rooms had doors left open, which I assume was an open invitation for anyone to enter. After what felt like ages I saw the clerk walking the halls.

"Excuse me," I said, "I've never been here before and I don't really know the culture. Are there any guidelines or things I should I know about? "Well, no means no no matter what. Otherwise, just do whatever you're comfortable with and enjoy yourself. "Alright. Can you point me to my booth?"

I had a key to two rooms side by side. In one was a TV set and stool. The other was completely empty. In the wall connecting the two was a hole with a gate. I put two and two together and opened the door to the empty room before proceeding into the one with the television set. I noticed as I was fumbling with the keys that there were a few guys lingering down the hall. I could feel their gaze even though I couldn't see their faces. When I got into the room I switched on the tv to find some porn playing. I sat down in the chair. Within a minute I heard someone enter the room next to me. He removed his towel. I could see his cock through the hole. I was incredibly nervous and didn't know what to do. I sheepishly waited for him to insert it through the hole. After a few moments he gave up and left the room. I realized I missed my chance. It was on me to invite him through. I felt dejected but somehow more comfortable knowing it's totally on my terms. I waited a few moments and walked out of the booth. I did a little leisurely stroll around the area before going back in. This time I made a bit of a show of the gesture to illustrate that I was ready.

Nearly as soon as I sat down I heard someone shuffle in the room next to me. I took off my pants and began to stroke myself. I saw my guest remove his towel. He had a long beautiful dick. Not too thick and not too thin. He waited there, presenting himself. I motioned "come here" with my fingers. He slid himself through the hole. This was it. I put my hands around his shaft. It was strange feeling a penis that wasn't my own. The skin was so soft and smooth. I felt an urge well up inside of me. I dropped to my knees and placed his hard cock into my mouth. The feeling was thrilling. I tried to imitate all the things I knew I liked. I was alarmed at how easy it was for me to take him all down my throat. I could hear soft moaning coming through the wall and the encouragement sent me into a frenzy. After a few minutes he pulled back and motioned through the hole. It was my turn.

I stuck my dick through the hole and immediate felt the warmth of his mouth. He proceeded to give me the best head I've ever gotten. We went back and forth like this a few more times. At one point he turned around and offered his ass to me. I wasn't ready for that yet so I declined. He went back to sucking my dick until I came. After he finished, he left the booth. I waited a few moments before walking out myself. I didn't see anyone else on my way out of the building and I have no idea who was on the other side of that wall.

Afterward I felt like I learned something about myself. I had a great time being sexual with another man but I still have no desire to be in a relationship with one. Since that experience I've fantasizes about what goes on in the other rooms of the building. When I'm ready, I think I may venture into one and make myself available. I want to feel what it's like to present myself to another person to be mounted. If/When that happens, I'll be sure to post about it here. Thanks for reading!