How I learned I was a slut lover. Thank you Heidi | 2016

My whole life, I have had a fetish. Well, actually I have a lot of fetishes, but this one has been the one that has defined my sexuality. The main sexual attraction I have is for slutty women. When I am in a relationship, I love sharing my lover. The more I love her, the more I want her to fuck other people. Lots of other people. And the more people she fucks, the more I fall in love with her.

Over the years I have been fortunate to have relationships with women like this, sadly they all ended for reasons that had nothing to do with sex (death from cancer for example). This story is about that defining moment when I discovered this side of myself.

It was first year Uni and I had been dating my high school sweetheart Lisa for several years. I loved her and was in love with her initially, but it took me a whole year to get into her pants. The sex was vanilla and she was rather repressed. Finally she broke up with me because I “was a pervert” because I wanted to rim her ass. Oddly I was heart broken and relieved.

At uni I met a couple, Mike and Heidi, who who friends of friends. Heidi turned me on from the moment I met her. She was 18 but looked younger with a boyish body and long white blond hair worn in two long pigtails. About 5'2, she was pale skinned and had the most wonderful pale blue eyes. She later confessed to me that she tried to look like what most people would consider a girl named “Heidi” to look like, part of her hidden twisted sense of humour.

She and Mike seemed to be a settled couple with no overt PDAs so I just hung out with them and got to be good friends with both.

One night I decided to drop by a friend house where he was hosting a “my parents are out of town” party. I got there late due to a family commitment and noticed the party was about 80% male with the 20% female section all clearly spoken for. I noticed Mike passed out on the sofa and wondered where Heidi was. The host spotted me and told me in a rather conspiratorial fashion that there was action upstairs if I was horny.

Yeah, as if there was ever a time I wasn't horny.

I went upstairs and in his parents bedroom, about 6 guys were standing around the bed. I couldn't see who was on the bed, but I could tell someone was getting fucked hard and loving it. I needed to see this since I was suddenly over the top horny. I pushed my way past the other guys (all naked and jerking off) and saw Heidi on her hands and knees getting spit roasted. The guy fucking her was a rugby player I knew from around campus, and he was pounding her so hard that he was driving the black cock she was sucking down her throat with each thrust.

At that moment, my life changed. It was like a spiritual awakening. Not only did I love this whole scene but I fell madly totally and passionate in love with Heidi. She was covered in sweat, hickies and red splotches which told me she had been at this for a while. Her hair was soaked and matted to her head and face, her makeup smeared. She was making animal sounds and gagging and clutching at the thighs of the guy face fucking her. I thought she was beautiful.

The guy fucking her said he was about to cum. She pulled her mouth off the other cock and turned her head and told the guy he better cum in her cunt. That set him over the edge and as she turned back to work on the black cock again, she saw me.

She froze and in a weak voice said “Oh shit.” Then she came hard. After she collapsed, she told everyone to leave and started crying. As we turned, she called to me and asked me to stay.

I went and sat on the bed, staring at her abused and used body. My cock was so hard it hurt. My balls ached so bad. She started sobbing saying that I wasn't supposed to see this but she knew I eventually would. I asked her why she didn't want me to know and she threw her sweaty body into my arms and told me she loved me. She was sobbing about now I must think she was a slut and a whore.

I told her yes, I did think she was a slut, and that was the final step in me falling in love with her. I already loved her but this was the final piece I needed. She didn't believe me and we talked for about 10 minutes. Finally I told her to look at how hard I was. She smiled a bit and lay back. She spread herself out for me posing, asking me if I really did like what I saw. I replied by crawling between her legs and going down on her cum filled pussy. She came immediately.

Then I licked my way up her and slip my cock into her. As I slid into her I came so hard I almost blacked out. We spent the rest of the night fucking and talking. I asked her about Mike. Apparently the two of them had grown up together and loved each other dearly but about a year before, Mike had told her he was gay. So they kept the relationship going for appearances sake but she took advantage of that to explore her slutty side.

Heidi and I dated for almost a year. We were kinky beyond belief and madly in love. Sadly, all things come to an end. In our case, she had to return to Europe and eventually our LDR just became too hard to maintain. However, she did show me that my love of slutty women was a part of who I was, not a passing dalliance.