[F]irst ti[m]e at a nude beach | 2016

Rob and I lied down on our towels. It was extremely awkward as we barely talked to each other before this trip at school. We did share a couple classes together and knew each other but never really hung out in person. And now, we were together, among tens of other naked people, at a nude beach in Hawaii.

I wasn't even sure if I wanted to be naked or just wanted to be at a nude beach. It's one of those places I always assumed to exist only in jokes or in books. I've never met anyone who has been to a nude beach, let alone know one. And yet, in a weird twist of fate, I ended up one and I wanted to see where it went.

I could tell that Rob was as in much as disbelief as I was but he seemed to be enjoying it less. I could see him looking around awkwardly, his gaze moving so fast that he both wanted to take it all in but at the same time never fixate on anyone. I wanted to lighten to mood a bit so I turned to him and said "I guess we can check that off the list" but it didn't seem to help. He just sat there, looking around.

I thought about back home where even wearing a bikini instead of a one-piece would get me yelled at by my dad. I lied on my stomach and undid the back of my top. For the first time ever, the sun was shining on my back, with nothing in between its rays and my skin. But this wasn't enough. I felt like I was cheating. My breasts were still as covered as they had ever been. So I rose up just a bit, took my top under me and threw them towards Rob, not too far, but far enough so that they landed out of my reach. Now, for, the first time, I was "topless". I knew as soon as I had to get up, my breasts would be exposed. I arranged it so that there was no other way. It was happening.

I could see Rob looking at me. He let out a quick sigh and lied on his back.

I don't know how long we stayed like this. I really wanted to turn to the other side and expose my bare chest just to see how that'd feel but doing it in front of my "friend" was too much. While it felt perfectly normal to be naked in front of perfect strangers, the thought of just exposing my breasts in front of my friends terrorized me.

But when I thought I was out of luck, Rob turned to me and said "I guess this is how it's done here", rose up, pulled down his shorts and started walking towards the water. It all happened so fast me to raise my head and see what's happening. I rose up, and turned towards the water, just to see his bare ass. There he was, walking towards the water without a stitch of clothing on him. I couldn't believe my eyes that he was fully naked, his manliness all exposed to every single person. I tried to imagine how that looked.

I realized I had been covering my breasts with my hands as I got up to look at him. I was a bit disappointed how uncontrollable that was but I decided to let it go and put my both hands on the sand to watch Rob walk into the water. I really wished him turned this way, not to see his penis but to convince myself that he was actually naked.

As he entered the water, he hesitated a bit since the water was too cold and took a couple steps back. I knew this could be it. He walked a bit further but then saw a big wave come and actually turned around to run away from it. And there it was, his penis and his balls, just a couple tens of yards away from me. He looked at towards where I was with a funny expression on his face from the cold of the water and I waved at him.

And right there, I realized I wasn't excited by anything sexual happening around us but that this was such a brand new yet natural experience that I was having that excited me. It wasn't that he was naked and that his was the first penis I've ever seen outside of my partners or that I was topless at a beach for the first time every in my life. It was that being naked, or topless, or nude, or whatever people called them meant nothing at all.

I got up, pulled down the bottom of my bikini without any hesitation and walked towards the water. I could see him being both shocked and relieved as I came close. Then we both entered the water, swam around a bit, and then got out and lied down on the beach together, in our birthday suits.