[F] Why I decided to post a few pictures | 2016

I had a talk with a girl yesterday on here and she asked me how I got the courage to post my pictures. I'm not sure if it's that I am seeking attention, or something to make me feel empowered about my body. (I'm still not strong enough to show my face).

Lately things between my husband and I have gotten a little stale. We are good communicators and he we talked about different things we can do to reignite the fire - going on more dates, things like role playing, even couples therapy. It worked for a while, but it didn't seem to go the way we both planned. He is older than I am and I have been with my husband for 8 years since I was in undergrad and it seems like we both missed out on the "fun" times of our lives. He is away for work abit and although he says he is faithful, I think that he definitely has fooled around when he is away.

Two weeks ago we decided to meet up with a couple friend of ours that we know are pretty open minded when it comes to sex to see what they do. They are my friends from college and I have definitely had a few fun moments with her before both of us got married. She said a fun thing to do sometimes is to go online and play with yourself, or post some pictures. She said that it really boosted her self confidence to see people writing about her or making people climax. But she knows me really well and realized what I was hinting at, even though I was way too scared to mention it out loud.

She suggested that we switch partners for the night, but not be all together. My husband was initially very hesitant about the idea of someone else being with me, but I think the idea of him sleeping with one of my best friends was the deciding thing. We did lay some ground rules so we all felt comfortable with it, but it was really all about just doing what you felt you missed out on, and so they advised that its best if we use separate rooms so we don't freak out halfway through or get angry or jealous at what we were doing to each other. My friend did say that she had done this before with another couple and its best to use protection. My friend and my husband went to one room, and we went to another.

Her husband Jonathan was pretty handsome, but a little on the pudgy side. He was very quiet and relaxed, probably comes from smoking weed. He is honestly just an average looking guy but he does make me laugh alot. I was shaking but he held my hand and told me that we didn't have to go through with it. We sat and talked for a while about our fantasies and also my reservations and I have to admit I was about to back out, but I started to hear banging sounds coming from the other room. It was obvious that they were already at it.

I originally got a little shocked like that feeling of feeling empty inside hearing those sounds, but it seemed that it was a sign of acceptance. I don't know if I was really into it, or that I just started because I knew my husband was in the other room having sex with my friend. We did all the usual things, foreplay, touching, he licked me out (which felt sooooo good) and I sucked his dick which was the first uncircumsized dick I had ever seen. He put on a condom and for about 5 minutes he went from really slow and gentle to me having one leg up above my head. We did alot of other kinky things, and then he asked me if I had ever done it in my ass. My husband always says "Ashley, you know I don't like it when you ask that, I respect you too much". So I said yes. He only went in and out a few times before it hurt me a little too much but luckily he said he was really close, so I pulled off his condom and started sucking for him to cum in mouth

I'm not sure what overcame me, maybe because I find it so much easier to orgasm with cum, but I stopped sucking his dick and climbed up and squatted on top of his cock. After what seemed like only 5 seconds I felt him squirting his cum inside me and I immediately orgasmed. In know we had agreed to use protection, but I couldn't help myself. After I climbed off, I don't know why, but I started to lick the left over cum off his dick. I had never done this because I have been worried about tasting myself. He laid me on my back and started putting his dick into me and with every stroke he pulled out more cum and then I continued to taste the combination of him and me. He probably did this about 20 times. It was really sexy and each time he put his dick into me I let out this inaudible moan that I really hadn't experienced before.

I cleaned off and about 30 minutes later we all met up in the living room. I started to feel really guilty about what had happened, especially because my husband didn't know he came inside me. But knowing my husband, and my friend from the stories she has told me, chances are they did this too.

Two weeks have passed and my husband is away (again). Some things in our relationship have gotten better, but I get the feeling that things are starting to slowly fall apart, and it is starting to make me feel bad about the decision we made (kinda like the movie indecent proposal), but I do have to say that it definitely has awakened my senses abit more. I remembered that my friend said that sometimes posting pictures makes her feel empowered.....so that is why I decided to post images as the next best thing.

I hope you enjoy them. The comments are making me fuzzy.

(I don't know how to add pictures here - first time, but they are on my profile) Actually, I'll try this Imgur but I have more pics. If you could give them a thumbs up, the thought of alot of people seeing them and sending me comments is making me feel really good about myself. :)