Exploring my submissive side for the first time [F30] [LONG - Photos included] | 2016

I’m a long time reader and fan of this subreddit, but this is my first time posting. This story happened this past week and is 100% true. I included some photos of myself as proof (I mentioned why I took them towards the end of the post): http://imgur.com/a/S7Nke

BACKSTORY: I’ve been interested in threesomes, being spanked, tied up, and other aspects of the BDSM lifestyle for a long time. The idea of being a submissive has always turned me on, but I had no idea how to explore it and what I might like. I’m pretty shy around men, so it’s been a while since I’ve had sex. Almost a month ago, while I was perusing various websites about it, I came across some postings by this one Dom. Since he seemed respectful and knowledgeable, I decided to message him to ask how to go about finding someone to explore BDSM with.

He responded with a wealth of helpful information and suggestions, including signing up for fetlife and going to some munches. I signed up and started perusing it. I didn’t go to any munches, as I was still too nervous (and busy at work) to take that first step. I kept worrying about what you’re supposed to wear and do, and who I might meet. In other words, I’m a total wuss.

To keep this backstory short, one message led to another and he offered to give me an introduction to serving, all of which would take place online. I happily agreed. That was a week ago. Now here comes the fun part...

MONDAY: The first night, as he instructed, I stripped and crawled onto the bed on all fours. I had been looking forward to this all day. I pumped my finger in and out of my tight pussy, and could hear how wet I was. Then I dragged my finger across my clit to circle it, and slowly teased my finger up and down. It felt so fucking good. I spanked each cheek several times, which made me moan and squirm. I repeated this cycle for a half hour. By the end, my clit was throbbing and I was soaking wet.

He told me to let him know when I was desperate to cum. I wasn’t there yet but I was insanely wet… That night I ordered a new vibrator to play with :-)

TUESDAY: He sent another message telling me to add on 15 minutes, and to make sure to get to the edge of the orgasm each time before I stopped, calmed down and started again. I also learned what he was making me do was called “edging.” I’d never heard of it before. If you haven’t done it, I highly recommend it. It’s freaking incredible when you do finally cum.

I repeated the routine from the night before but made sure I stopped RIGHT before coming each time. It felt really intense and amazing. Towards the end of the 45 minutes, whenever I'd start again, it was like I jumped right back to where I was before I stopped.

When I finished, my whole body was focused on my clit and nipples, and I was starting to understand what he meant by desperate to cum…

WEDNESDAY: When I woke up, my pussy was throbbing and my whole body felt like it was tingling. I moaned, rolled over and arched my ass in the air wishing for someone to fuck me and spank me hard from behind.

He told me to wear a garter belt and stockings while edging that night, and I felt sexy as fuck with them on. I lost count of how many times I almost came in 45 minutes…it all became a blur. I got a hair away from coming several times, especially towards the end. It was hot needing and wanting permission to cum.

THURSDAY: As soon as I walked in the house, I stripped, and put on my garter belt and stockings. I crawled into bed, spread my legs, arched my ass into the air, placed my elbows on the bed, and put my head down in between them. I thought about presenting myself for spanking like he instructed. I pictured someone standing behind me starring my pussy and ass while deciding what to do with me. The cool air felt torturous on my hot pussy. I spanked each cheek a few times as hard as I could, and reached down to drag my finger slowly through my pussy. I finger fucked myself for a while, and was rubbing my nipples back and forth on the sheets. I almost came from just penetration, which had never happened to me before. I was/am really excited about that. I repeated the routine for 45 minutes. Towards the end, my legs were shaking and my face felt really hot whenever I got close to coming. I was dripping wet, so much so that I thought it might actually slide down my thighs. Needless to say, I was pretty desperate to cum.

Afterwards, I started shopping for vibrating butt plugs since I’m intrigued by them. I messaged him for his opinion. He suggested more conventional butt plugs to start with, so I ordered a starter kit with 4 different sizes.

FRIDAY: While I was at work and sitting at my desk, we messaged in real-time on my phone. I was so turned on and started blushing as he gave me a specific set of instructions to follow that evening so I could finally cum. During the conversation, he told me that I was to think about all the things I was being MADE to do. My pussy was pulsing as I read his messages and it was torture to have to wait until I could go home.

That night I had to wear panties with my garter belt so I put on a matching thong. I “presented” myself and spread my legs wide. I spanked myself on my left cheek first and counted 1. I repeated it, a little harder this time, and said 2. I continued this until I got to 5 and smacked my ass as hard as I could. I repeated this on my right cheek.

When I reached back to feel how wet my panties were, I moaned at the contact. I ran my fingers slowly up and down until they were soaked through, just like he instructed.

I took my panties off and got back on all fours. I ran my hand down my body, starting by squeezing my breasts and pinching my nipples. I ran my fingers lightly down my stomach and traced the edges of the garter belt, causing goose bumps to break out over my skin. I ran my finger over my pussy lips for a while, desperately wishing I could touch my clit for some relief. I had to stop at one point because I thought I could cum while thinking about how he made me edge all week. After a few deep breaths, I ran my hand over my ass, which I spanked again several times on each cheek. Because I was so fucking turned on, I did something I’d never done or had done to me before…I ran my middle finger down the crack of my ass. I was surprised at how good that felt and got excited about the butt plugs I ordered. I reached down and ran my fingers over my pussy lips again. By now, I was so desperate to touch my clit that I would’ve done anything…

At this point, I was begging to cum while still running my fingers over my pussy lips. Then I slid two fingers into my dripping wet pussy. It was a tight fit since I haven’t had sex in a while and I usually only use one finger, but I was so wet that it didn’t matter. I moaned at the feel of my fingers and the sound of my fingers moving in and out. It felt soooooooo good to finally have my pussy full. I fucked myself slowly, rubbing the front wall and my G spot. I was circling my hips, rubbing my nipples on the sheets, and starting to get really hot. It took me a bit, but my legs started trembling again and I got to the edge so I pulled my fingers out. I was breathing hard, and my clit was pounding.

I pictured him making me beg to cum by pulling my hair back roughly to say it out loud while spanking me hard. Then I began finger fucking myself to the edge again. I was able to get there somewhat quicker the second time. When I stopped, my face felt flushed, and my whole body was tingling.

I repeated, “My pussy belongs to you,” and then I finger fucked myself as fast and hard as I could while counting to five. I learned today that I didn’t do this part correctly. You’re supposed to already be about to cum, and hold off by counting to five, which I didn’t do. Regardless, I kept fingering myself as fast as I could, still not touching my clit, until I came HARD. I remember my legs were shaking involuntarily while pumping my fingers in and out to ride it out. It was by far the most intense orgasm that I’ve ever had, and it felt so incredible to finally cum after days of edging.

As he instructed, I flipped on my back and spread my legs wide, excited that I was FINALLY allowed to touch my clit. This time I slid the fingers on my left hand into my pussy so I could use my right on my clit when the time came. I slid my fingers inside, slowly pumping in and out at first. I rubbed my breasts with my free hand, increasing the speed of my hand. I finally touched my clit, and rubbed it as hard and fast as I could. It felt FUCKING AMAZING after not touching it all day… and I came again. My legs had moved so they were straight on the bed and closed tight around my hands (I don’t remember consciously doing it). Again, my legs shook as I came, which is also a new phenomenon to me. That’s never happened to me from sex or masturbation. I continued to rub my clit as I came down. Once I was finished, I bent my legs and spread them wide again.

I dragged the fingers in my pussy up and around my clit to spread my juices. I kept rubbing my clit and fingering myself until I came twice more. My body felt relaxed and incredible by the time I was done.

After I came the final time, I was suddenly so tired that I could barely keep my eyes open. But I remembered what he said about licking my fingers clean. I lazily lifted my hand and put my middle finger in my mouth first. It felt naughty to be tasting myself…and I liked it. I finished licking the other three fingers that I used, and the next thing I knew I was asleep. Who knew you could pass out cold from too many orgasms? :-)

SATURDAY: I took some sexy selfies as the sun was going down in my bedroom. (Not because he asked for them, but because I wanted to.) This was another first me for me. Since it was low light, they came out grainy, which I actually really like. Hope you like them… http://imgur.com/a/S7Nke

In just a short week as a submissive, I’m already feeling more sensual, confident, and sexy. I like that he’s in charge of how and when I cum. And I’m excited to FINALLY be taking a step towards exploring my (secret) sexual desires and fantasies. I’m having a blast so far.

Hope you enjoyed my first post ;-) I’m off to bed to edge myself again…sweet dreams.