Cannot control mysel[F] | 2016

Hi all, this is my first official Reddit post, so please show some love. I have just joined yesterday. I actually do not have one specific story to write, but I enjoy reading these so much that I wanted to put my input, below I have put together some bits and pieces of my personal, horny life.

I am 22 years old from a place which I will just describe as somewhere in Europe ( I don't want to reveal too much). I am currently in a relationship with my soon to be husband and we have been together for 9 years, yes I was 13 we were childhood sweethearts. I know that it is not something common, but we have been quite happy, we have grown with each other and we have a very comfortable relationship. We were both our firsts. Our sex life is good, pretty systematic, where usually everything follows the same order, but I really enjoy myself and he can make me cum.

We are not sex maniacs together, we only have sex around once a week. I am always interested in trying new things and experimenting sexually but he is not so keen. The kinkiest stuff that we have done together is fingering and sucking in public (which he was terrified of), anal and cum swallowing.

As I said I am more carefree side of things. I consider myself as very good looking, with a shapely toned ass and B cup tits, big brown eyes and wavy brown hair. I was a model for some time. Although i have never cheated on him, I must say that I have previously chatted with strangers on cam while fingering myself and had multiple orgasms which were amazing.

I love to be submissive, I would love a person ordering me to suck cock and spanking me. After reading some things on here, I will admit I felt really horny, yesterday I had the most amazing orgasm, I was imagining that I was being fucked from behind and giving another guy a blowjob at the same time. It would be my dream to be fucked by two guys. I would love to try a threesome sometime or even swinging. But I am sure my thoughts will be shut down. When I mention something like this to him, he would look at me like I am some kind of crazy person.

I would love 2 guys to take me roughly, gagging me with their dicks and exhibiting me to their friends, I would love to also be with another woman, just for the sake of trying it.

I want to have an fun, sexy and adventurous sex life, and although I masturbate at least three times a week, the urge to fuck someone spontaneously and rough always grows.

I feel quite guilty when I have cam chat sessions with strangers, and I see them appreciating my body and playing with their dick, seeing them horny for me turns me on.

I admit that most of the time when I am masturbating I would be thinking about cheating on my boyfriend, but I probably would never go along with it.

Is it cheating if I am showing my body to someone on camera and fingering myself until they see me orgasm hard for their enthusiasm in me?